I work with a very strong personality girl who seems to take offense with a lot that I say. I think she misunderstands me, but it makes me feel like crap. It's not my fault and hopefully the boss has explained it, but still...
My ex has been sent home to die and my oldest still is not accepting it well. I guess that's to be expected under the circumstances
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Monday, May 5, 2008
Sigh, why do I feel so ganged up on?
My boss just called me andsaid she couldn't approve my leave time for a mamogram the dr wants aspa. because its during a mandatory training. That's ok, I honestly had forgotten about the training when I scheduled it. But then she went on and on about how I had been taking bits off here and there(With leave time accrued for my Dr's appts.) without being off payroll except 1 day. Then she says she is going to extend my probation, the work test is nearly done, however a probation period eveidently does not run concurrent and starts when the other ends. She says she does not know if she can approve me having a whole week off for July when I scheduled my surgery because I will "still be on probation" (The week would consist of 3 days leave and a holiday plus the weekend)There are undertones, that the program that I am working in may be cancelled in June (Doesn't really make sense since I heard we did really well on the audit) and since I am the last one hired, I would probably be the one let go if that happens, which doesn't seem real fair, since I have 12 years working with the county. I am trying my best, I do a good job, but I want to be healthy too. So why do I feel so un supported on this.... I am just so upset right now. Why is life so damn difficult!
Thursday, May 1, 2008
Totally worn out... but so numb
I talked to my Dr today to schedule my surgery. It will be July 1st so I can have the holiday weekend to recuperate. Not looking forward to it..
Jeremy now has his K-1VISA and his ticket booked for May 20th. Finally! We have waited so long! So soon thank god, I won't be alone to shoulder so much stuff alone.
My father had his 3rd shot of interferon yesterday and he is tired but getting through it. Mom says his pneumonia is better, and he didn't seem to be hacking as much.
She (mom) funnily enough is now taking Strattera. If you don't know what it is or what its for, Google it. Its ironic because she never wanted my brother to be on Ritalin, which was the only one available back then. ROFL
After my patients today I went to see my ex. They have moved him from the CCU to a room, but I was shocked in how much weight he had lost in a week. He seemed glad to see me, however his father was there and he sneered and snarled the whole time. Made me feel a bit bad to be there, but I couldn't discuss important things when he was there so I will have to go back maybe next week. He doesn't look good and I am afraid he may not have that much longer.
Did I mention Jeremy will be here soon, at least I will have something pleasant to come home to. I've missed him so much and all of that plus all the other stuff I have been snorkeling in have just really really worn me down physically and mentally. I really do need him with me, despite other people's opinions and misgivings about the two of us. I know my family sees how happy I am when he is here, and all I can do is hope that soon anyone else willl fall in line, or fall out of my life.
Jeremy now has his K-1VISA and his ticket booked for May 20th. Finally! We have waited so long! So soon thank god, I won't be alone to shoulder so much stuff alone.
My father had his 3rd shot of interferon yesterday and he is tired but getting through it. Mom says his pneumonia is better, and he didn't seem to be hacking as much.
She (mom) funnily enough is now taking Strattera. If you don't know what it is or what its for, Google it. Its ironic because she never wanted my brother to be on Ritalin, which was the only one available back then. ROFL
After my patients today I went to see my ex. They have moved him from the CCU to a room, but I was shocked in how much weight he had lost in a week. He seemed glad to see me, however his father was there and he sneered and snarled the whole time. Made me feel a bit bad to be there, but I couldn't discuss important things when he was there so I will have to go back maybe next week. He doesn't look good and I am afraid he may not have that much longer.
Did I mention Jeremy will be here soon, at least I will have something pleasant to come home to. I've missed him so much and all of that plus all the other stuff I have been snorkeling in have just really really worn me down physically and mentally. I really do need him with me, despite other people's opinions and misgivings about the two of us. I know my family sees how happy I am when he is here, and all I can do is hope that soon anyone else willl fall in line, or fall out of my life.
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